Focus, Focus, Focus!

So, this morning Jeremiah had a his two year check up and it was so weird going to a doctor appointment that had nothing to do with Isaiah. I think Isaiah started getting a little concerned about the appointment, b/c Jeremiah had to get shots and when the nurse came in with the tray of needles, Isaiah started crying! It was hilarious and sad at the same time that he's so used to being in the hospitals and doctor's offices and getting poked and prodded so much that he automatically assumes that any time we are there, it's for him. I will tell you that I think I caught a glimpse of him breathing a sigh of relief when he saw the nurse turn towards Jeremiah. Jeremiah on the other hand, did NOT fare so well! He had to take FOUR shots!

It was funny though, b/c I'm so used to taking them to the doctor's offices and dealing with the loud chaos that ensues in the tiny little room that when I had to take a friends child in with me, that I was babysitting, I realized just how crazy it gets, b/c she kept covering her ears and looking for a happy place! It was funny, but she is an only child. So, any loud chaos that's going to be had, would be brought by her. It was just funny to me watching her sitting there trying so hard to find the one spot, in that tiny room, that had that small breath of peace and quiet! Welp! Welcome to the world of three children! LOL!

After all was said and done there, we picked up a friend of mine and took off to the mall. What's funny is that I hate going to the mall, but whenever I go anywhere I have to weigh the costs of loading whether or not it's worth the trouble of loading and unloading Isaiah and his wheelchair. It's sad, but a lot of trips get rejected, if they can't offer something really stinkin awesome or at least something really needed!

Anyway, so we were at the mall and we took the kids to the play area over there and it kind of stunk, b/c Jeremiah and Isabella were having an awesome time climbing in, on, and around everything and all Isaiah could do was watch from his wheelchair. I know that his perspective may not be the same as mine, but it doesn't make it any easier to watch, you know? I mean, we got a jogging stroller to take Isaiah through trails and into parks, we got him a trailer that could be pulled by our bicycles, and we got him a wagon to be able to go everywhere in between, but it's frustrating to know that it's still not the same! Think about it, when you get on a swing, you don't need anyone's help to get you swinging on it, his legs don't work. I mean, he had to get therapy just to be able to lift his head up. Isabella and Jeremiah were able to do that almost immediately after being born.

It's frustrating, sometimes, b/c I want to make EVERYTHING work for him, you know? I want to get a house that is all flat, that he can take his wheelchair everywhere. I want a yard that's flat, so he can go outside with Isabella and Jeremiah without running the risk of flying down the hill to certain calamity. Here's the thing, though...God said that if I seek HIS kingdom first, meaning if I seek first what His will is and I make His will my highest priority, He will take care of EVERYTHING else! So, if I just keep my focus on Him, then He will take care of EVERYTHING Isaiah needs, wants, everything! See, cuz no matter what I do, no matter how hard I work, no matter how many hours I spend stressing, no matter how clearly I lay out any plans, God knows what is the very BEST for Isaiah. Ahhhhh....that really takes a load off!