When I was single I went through some drama that I ate my way out of. I got up to 225 pounds. I started walking and was able to lose 50 pounds. It was so great! It was so simple, you know? If I felt like working out, I would change clothes, put my sneakers on and just go walking!

Then, I met and married my husband and 3 months later got pregnant with Isaiah and gained every last drop back. Since having Isaiah I have tried to get the weight back off, but I kept getting pregnant! Finally, when I had Jeremiah, I knew I could FINALLY get this done! So, I got a membership at a gym nearby and started working out at 5am, that got old and I quit that. Then, I started doing the p90x and have only made it 3 weeks. Then, Jeremiah finally got old enough to go into the childcare at the gym, so I started going to an aerobics class in the mornings, but then found out that the childcare setup was quite idiotic. Then, I dieted and so on and so on.

I was so jazzed, b/c I started out at 230 pounds and got down to 200!!! Then, this year hit. I have been so stressed out, exhausted and worn out from hospital stays. And, as I said, I eat my way through drama, so I have gained most of that weight back. It's become so frustrating that I keep trying to fight off the urge to just give up. Here's the thing, though, on December 27, 2002 I had to watch my father dying in front of me from a heart attack. He made it through, but that was the first time I found out what it meant for someone's eyes to become sunken. B/c of that experience, I decided that I don't want my children to have to ever go through that. UGH! Losing weight SUCKS!!!!!

Man, liposuction is looking better and better!!!!