So, I was smiling and nodding quite a bit yesterday, until 3:45 this morning. I couldn't take it any more when the lab tech had the audacity to come in loud and with an attitude right before she was going to draw even more blood from my son. Then, as the day wore on Isaiah started getting a fever, yet again! Then, my mom calls me to tell me that Jeremiah has a very red and swollen ear!
I know that God has a purpose behind this, but you know? it doesn't seem to make things any easier. It just seems like one child having drama would be enough. Fortunately, a friend of mine was able to give me some suggestions to pass on to my mom for it, but when she showed up with him to visit us at the hospital, his ear looked a whole lot worse that it sounded. When I showed it to the nurses, they all told me that he really needed to get checked out immediately, which sent my family rushing back out, which tore my heart out as they walked away. I miss my kids so much and to have to watch Jeremiah crying b/c he wasn't ready to leave me and honestly, I wasjn't ready for him or Isabella to leave either! What's more frustrating is wishing you could cry, but having all these nurses and staff surrounding me doesn't make that easy.
At least, I ended up finding out that it was just a bug bite that swelled up his ear. You know how I told you about how the Lord is pulling out a violent praise and in order to do that He's going to empty me out completely of myself? OMGOSH! I can't tell you how painful this has been! I mean, I'll go through whatever God needs me to for Him to get more glory out of my life, it's just not an easy road. Kinda makes me think about Job and how this man sat there and overnight lost EVERYTHING! His children, his land, his animals, EVERYTHING! There times that he let his frustration known, but he kept trusting the Lord. So, I guess I can handle this, since I haven't lost anything other than time. Man, that really puts it in perspective, huh?
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