Seriously?!

So, I left on Friday for a break and the only reason I felt comfortable with it was because he was laughing and smiling the whole time! Then, Friday around midnight Richard called me asking where they usually put his IV's, b/c his PICC line got clogged! Then, Saturday morning he called me and told me that Isaiah threw up again and his temp. spiked and his heart just seemed to start going crazy. As if that wasn't enough, this morning he called me to to tell me that his hemoglobin level was low and they were going to start him on a blood transfusion! OMGOSH! I've watched my father dying from a heart attack right in front of me. I have held my son dead in my arms twice and done CPR on him both times. I have watched Isaiah have surgery after surgery since he was two hours old. But when I heard him say blood transfusion, my heart dropped. I've always associated them with someone that was dying!

I sit here and wonder just how much more of this can I take?! I mean, last weekend Isaiah looked like he was dying. His eyes were sunken and he turned ash gray! Then, this weekend he's getting his first blood transfusion! My mind keeps wanting to scream "GOD HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ISAIAH?!?!?", but then my heart reminds me that God has never allowed anything to occur for nothing. He's always taken care of me and my family. I can only trust that He is true to His word that He will never leave nor forsake Isaiah. So, whatta ya gonna do?

This weekend, though I got a word that God is pouring ever drop out of me of myself, b/c He's trying to pull a praise out of me that He has never heard. I tell you what! That's one scary word, but OMGOSH!!!! In all of this drama and chaos, God is working on taking me into a level of praise that I've never experienced before!!! Can you imagine?! I mean, think about it! Jesus received the Holy Spirit, but He NEVER performed a SINGLE MIRACLE until AFTER he went 40 days and 40 nights in a desert with NO FOOD, NO WATER and the devil tempted Him every which he could come up with. So, for Jesus it was 40 days of hell for Him! But then, you see the amazing things that He did once he went through all of that drama! So, the way I'm figuring, all I can say is THANK YOU FATHER FOR THE DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!